operation winter storm - day 3

This is the 3rd day. Yes, I have been terminated by my company. A lot of questions a lot of anguish.
My company just went for IPO. posting high earning. yet, the reason for my termination is that APAC region is not doing well. I have been in great relationships with all our partners and customer. yet none of this was taken into account.

The chinese new year for this year is extremely cold. CNY is coming, so is my termination. I wonder at back of my mind, who is the idiot? Joshua, Bill Leslie? Daniel and Barry should be ok? never know. I know growing out is pain. But not much of a choice right?

Joanna asked me not to look back. But I really felt unjust. I really wish the company will burn and go up in flames. I will never save Bill, Joshua, Jerry or Lucy even if I happen to be around them in car accident or in a sinking boat.

Raccoon has been hiding. I can do his job, I can do my job. Why there is no consideration that I can be dual purpose. His job needs no technical brain. yet, I am the one who is dead. Jerry says we are a tech start up, he values technical person. bull shit. pure crap.

I didnt sleep well. woke up early and submitted application via job street for 3 jobs. now it is not the time to be fussy. I will keep on looking for network jobs that will allow me to have exposure with firewalls. I need to learn fast, transform. I hate my company and I hate the management inside. Pure crap.