day 6 - time is running up

This is day 6 since the news is broken to me. A lot happened and understand the situation more. Shri is a bastard. Bill is another one. Joshua is the final one. Thanks Barry and Daniel. Thanks Zach. Not sure if Raccoon and Po got play tricks or not. But hate Joshua to the core. Sleep has not been well. Job search has not been well. Not much response from recruiters.

Singapore only needs one person. They choose raccoon. Why? He is the only one in the region?? Wtf??? His job is non technical and I can do it. Idiot Joshua didn't think of that? Or some tricks he played? Chinese new year is coming. Totally no feel. No mood. Sleep bad. Study hard.

By right I should be on the plane now. On the way to San Francisco. Exciting right? Nope. I am here at home, unable to sleep and writing this blog. Just to document down what happened. Who involved. GP is daily busy watching youtube. Cai is busy too. I just need to buck up and pray hard. Hate the world.

the truth about life situations

the truth about life is that you are always alone. yes. you will face your problems alone. no one can help you. no matter how close the person is to you. no matter what, they will not be there for you, always. they have their own commitment, they own things to worry. so you need to face whatever life throws to you on your own. this is the truth, this is ugly. need to suck thumb and accept it. stay strong, 自强不息。

operation winter storm - day 3

This is the 3rd day. Yes, I have been terminated by my company. A lot of questions a lot of anguish.
My company just went for IPO. posting high earning. yet, the reason for my termination is that APAC region is not doing well. I have been in great relationships with all our partners and customer. yet none of this was taken into account.

The chinese new year for this year is extremely cold. CNY is coming, so is my termination. I wonder at back of my mind, who is the idiot? Joshua, Bill Leslie? Daniel and Barry should be ok? never know. I know growing out is pain. But not much of a choice right?

Joanna asked me not to look back. But I really felt unjust. I really wish the company will burn and go up in flames. I will never save Bill, Joshua, Jerry or Lucy even if I happen to be around them in car accident or in a sinking boat.

Raccoon has been hiding. I can do his job, I can do my job. Why there is no consideration that I can be dual purpose. His job needs no technical brain. yet, I am the one who is dead. Jerry says we are a tech start up, he values technical person. bull shit. pure crap.

I didnt sleep well. woke up early and submitted application via job street for 3 jobs. now it is not the time to be fussy. I will keep on looking for network jobs that will allow me to have exposure with firewalls. I need to learn fast, transform. I hate my company and I hate the management inside. Pure crap.