dunno wtf am I doing??

Ok. It's 3.28 am in the morning. Just half attended a conference call, or sort of... it is actually some online training by the company. Really not interested in listening. dunno why but it feels like not my topic? so many pple talk, then getting info out of it is tough. or maybe it's me, i dont want to learn? oh yea, Sales VP messaged me and asked me to ask question. I was zzz... didn't see message.. this time die also dunno how liao... cry..

I feel weird in this job. Neither here nor there. No sense of belonging. Yes, I do like the job scope. Helping customers with their technical issues. Communicating with them. Travelling. But nowadays no more travel. And I feel that I belong to no where? Neither in escalation team nor in sales/pre sales.
Not in support nor in post sales. Seriously I think I am here because the job pays me.

It doesn't sounds like me at all. I do not like to sit around. Maybe I picked this bad habit up? Maybe it's the commitment that I am in now? Need to put food on table? But when I think back, I am currently tired of working in this industry. Maybe it's the sense of belonging again? I don't know.

It's time to sleep. but I just ate biscuits... becoming fat. hopefully I get the CCNP soon. left Tshoot. and get liao I also dunno what to do? maybe I will keep on slack till caught? I think I can work somewhere else, or new scope? If going down the current route, I will out of steam soon. Good night.