So blue

Yea, feeling so blue. Due to work.
Sick of work as u can call it.
I did not understand why am I left out of the loop for the meeting.
The issue should be affecting the entire team and I am not required to attend due to another "task"where I could have done it any other time than the meeting time.
I am told: "too many pple in meeting, no need go"
F*** as I would say, it's obvious that it will be good to know about whats the meeting talking abt so that in future I will be able to sync with the team and understand what is ought to be done.
And after the meeting, I am not even told whatever f***sh** happened.
Is a meeting ought to be so secretive?
Then there comes another issue, I am just a co-worker for doing regroupings. Whatever the case, the F***** just press the panic button and ask me to help. Well, i gotta it's job obligations that I must help. But the F***** still need to know exactly what time the wiring men can go and proceed to complete with the job. It's a goodwill provided to me by the wiring men that the job to be completed on ahoc basis. Such last minute job should not be entertained and let alot to be promised what time can the wiring men deliver the job.
Today it just happened that the issue is never conveyed to me and yet want me to do things according to her style. F***ing piece of s***. In the end still can "feedback" that i did not update her fast enough.

Let hope tomolo will be better. Never want such day again. !@#$%^&*()